Ok So I Have Something To Share...

Hello Lovelys,

I know that i had so many plans and ideas for blogging over Christmas and i didn't follow through with them...The reason being health related i thought i would create this post to explain to you a little bit about something i have kept quite personal and only shared with family and close friends.

18+ months ago whilst i was in my second year at University, i had experienced some stomach upsets and problems that meant i was needing the bathroom urgently. For a couple of weeks i thought it was what i was eating and drinking as at that time i was living the life of a student, eating late, eating out a lot and drinking many units of alcohol. After confiding in some friends they urged me to get checked out as all the symptoms of what i was experiencing wasn't normal. At the time i first went to a walk in center as trying to get a doctors appointment proved difficult and i was getting frustrated with not having any control of what was going on. I had an examination and was told that it was just having a bad experience with constipation and sent off with a type of laxative. This did not help. Eventually i was able to get an appointment with my doctor before starting the next university semester.

I had some blood tests done just to make sure it was nothing serious and he concluded Food Sensitivity/Irritable Bowel Syndrome. For the next year and a half i was back and forth for more tests, different tablets and eliminating food. During this time i was finishing university and working part time, so had a fair share of stressful moments (stress has been linked to IBS but there is no definitive answer to the exact cause) and was feeling particularly low.

It wasn't until graduation the symptoms started to get worse but by that time i had become very constrained to where i would go and what i would do. I spent my week either at work or at home. I didn't go out and socialise as i was very scared about either not getting to a bathroom in time or suddenly being unable to move with the pain. Where i did go though, i felt safe, my home is my home if anything happened like a sudden low point or a struggle with the pain i could stay in bed. At work (to which at the time i had two jobs) i was surrounded by so much support and the most lovely people. For a few hours each day i was able to push everything to the back of my mind, i know there was a bathroom near by and i knew if i was ill i could confide in management. Then something hit me.

I was trying so hard to push it all back and be normal that i didn't realise that the symptoms weren't just worse but also changing. As soon as i felt hunger i also felt sickness, when i smelt certain foods i again felt sickness. I was put off by food so quickly that i didn't really eat properly, what i was eating wasn't giving me any nutrients and i lost weight quite drastically. 8 Pounds in just under 3 weeks. So i went back to the doctors suspecting it was a stomach infection with the Food Sensitivity/IBS & i was told to drink lots of fluids and see if it passed. After it carried on persisting i went back to be given more tablets and go for more tests. This time i wasn't called back for a discussion of the results like previous, i was phoned and told i was being referred for an emergency appointment with the hospital.

Panic...that's all i was doing it was a bit silly in one way as i didn't know why i was being referred until i went to the first appointment but i couldn't help it as i felt very embarrassed by what was happening with me and i was having to then share that with someone else.
At this moment in time i am waiting to go in for a endoscopy and biopsy.....yikes, yes i am very scared and i feel very embarrassed by it but i know that it needs to be done and there's gas and air available! Im currently on steroids to help with the inflammation (Prednisolone) and they are making me very tired and very hungry.

So for this blog there's going to be a delay in posting on the beauty and fashion side and i will update anyone with what is happening, if that's something you want to see?

I was umm-ing and aah-ing with the idea of posting this and putting this out there, but after researching IBD i came to find out it can effect people from such a young age and seeing other people's stories and journeys have been really reassuring. I am in no way an expert on the subject im just starting to learn everything myself but what i learn i will share and hopefully what i share can benefit someone.

Thank you for reading, loves!

Hannah Marie x

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